Selamat Jalan, Bapak…

ada ying, ada yang
ada hitam, ada putih
ada langit, ada tanah
ada suka, ada duka
ada alfa dan ada omega…
a

da hidup, dan ada mati…
rumahNya adalah rumah kita,
nafas kita adalah milikNya.
semua yg diberikan olehNya, akan kembali padaNya…

————–

seperti mimpi rasanya….
baru kemarin melihat Bapak ngobrol dengan semangat…

hari ini, kami sekeluarga mengantarkan beliau pulang, ke peristirahatan terakhir Bapak.

Bapak sudah di rumah pemiliknya, di tempat-Nya.

Bapak istirahat ya…
Bapak jgn khawatir, kami kan besarkan anak-anak kami… cucu-cucu Bapak seperti yg Bapak lakukan, bijaksana-penuh cinta.

terima kasih, Bapak… selama ini sudah menyayangi saya spt menyayangi anak Bapak sendiri.

Tuhan sudah dan akan memberikan yang terbaik untuk Bapak… untuk Abah…
selamat jalan… sampai bertemu nanti… di rumahNya.

happy bday me…

“I Don’t Want To Grow Up”

When I’m lyin’ in my bed at night
I don’t wanna grow up
Nothing ever seems to turn out right
I don’t wanna grow up
How do you move in a world of fog that’s
always changing things
Makes wish that I could be a dog
When I see the price that you pay
I don’t wanna grow up
I don’t ever want to be that way
I don’t wanna grow up
Seems that folks turn into things
that they never want
The only thing to live for is today…
I’m gonna put a hole in my T.V. set
I don’t wanna grow up
Open up the medicine chest
I don’t wanna grow up
I don’t wanna have to shout it out
I don’t want my hair to fall out
I don’t wanna be filled with doubt
I don’t wanna be a good boy scout
I don’t wanna have to learn to count
I don’t wanna have the biggest amount
I don’t wanna grow up
Well when I see my parents fight
I don’t wanna grow up
They all go out and drinkin all night
I don’t wanna grow up
I’d rather stay here in my room
Nothin’ out there but sad and gloom
I don’t wanna live in a big old tomb on grand street
When I see the 5 oclock news
I don’t wanna grow up
Comb their hair and shine their shoes
I don’t wanna grow up
Stay around in my old hometown
I don’t wanna put no money down
I don’t wanna get a big old loan
Work them fingers to the bone
I don’t wanna float on a broom
Fall in love, get married then boom
How the hell did it get here so soon
I don’t wanna grow up

~ Tom Waits for RAMONEZ

thank you, 2011!

it’s been a wonderful and tough year for me. and i guess there are lots if things that i really have to learn more and much much more learning to do.

having such a beautiful family, friends and relatives… i am trully blessed.

the stepping stones are floating above the water. and my feet are too heavy to step on those.

all i need is more strength and prayers. so… help me, God.

good bye and thank you, 2011.

it could be sweet

~ Portishead, Dummy

I don’t want to hurt you
For no reason have I but fear
And I ain’t guilty of the crimes you accuse me of But I’m guilty of fear I’m sorry to remind you
but I’m scared of what we’re creating

This life ain’t fair
You don’t get something for nothing, turn now

Mmmm….
gotta try a little harder
It could be sweet

Like a long forgotten dream
And we don’t need them to cast the fate we have
Love don’t always shine thru
Cos I don’t wanna lose
What we had last time your leaving this life ain’t fair
You don’t get something for nothing, turn now

mmmm…
gotta try a little harder
it could be sweet…..

But the thoughts we try to deny
Take a toll upon our lives
We struggle on in depths of pride
Tangled up in single minds
Cos I don’t wanna lose
What we had last time your leaving this life ain’t fair

You don’t get something for nothing, turn back
Mmmm…. gotta try a little harder

Cos I don’t wanna lose
What we had last time your leaving this life ain’t fair
You don’t get something for nothing, turn back

Mmmm…..
gotta try a little harder
It could be sweet

—————- @ Ayah.

~beribu patung

patung rindu
patung cinta
patung siksa
patung diam
patung sakithati
patung tangis
patung duka
patung beribu patung
pasung beribu airmata
airmata beribu kebebasan
beribu… patung
ber-ibu… patung